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Name: Matthew
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Cincinnati
Birthday: 7/18/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: I enjoy tea, coffee, beer, classical music, jazz, crazy off the wall metal, I am really into Indie rock, and watching strange films like fantastic planet! God is a huge part of my life. My chruch friends are also a huge part of my life, I love spending time with people of like mind!
Expertise: I am an expert at creating hypithetical situations. Not lying, but creating the most outrageous scenarios possible!
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  herrendez
Yahoo:  herrendez
Member Since:
3/27/2005
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| uummm.... delicous, you should come over and try some of these burritos im eatin' they are soo good! | | |
| Since many of you want me to stay i will, but i don't know how often i'll update or how often i'll comment on your page.
Moving forward. Ladies you need to look up Hello Saferide, I believe you will all like her music! Felos, uhh... you all owe me $5!
I had the great idea that we should all have a costume party of our own during Louisville! I think sunday night is a good night. I'm gonna spread the word and chat with everyone to see if people are down for it. Let me know if you think its a good idea. | | |
| This is my last xanga entry, i will soon terminate my profile and leave forever. I have the time for this but i don't feel the want to write down what I've been doing. No one seems to use this service anymore anyways. But just a quick update.
I work full time now at Caribou coffee, and am a shift supervisor. I love my job, it's a lot of fun. The people there have been refreshing in that they have challenged me on what i believe and i have been able to defend what I believe quite firmly.
I can't wait for the Winter Family Weekend, and the ABC class to come in. I love seeing everyone and can't wait to be reacquainted with some good friends.
Welp, goodnight and goodbye!
Love,
Hatt Mernandez | | |
| So I received some great philosophical incite from Batman Begins. Rachel Daws, the attorney friend of Bruce Wayne's, says to Brucy "Its not what's on the inside, but what we do that defines us." This got me thinking that maybe people don't take me that seriously because I'm usually really silly and joke around a lot. The people that know me well, know the side of me that is serious and quite different than I appear. I was glad to see some of you took the time to read my last post. It was just a brief synopsis of what has happened, lots more has gone on but I'd rather not share because of the extreme personal nature.
Anyways, its nice to know some of you see beyond the crazy guy that I am most of the time. | | |
| I have insomnia. I have been laying in bed for hours with thought of everything that has happened to me in the past three years. Sleep is not for me tonight, I decided maybe writing was the answer. So much has happened in my life in the past three years its hard to know where to start.
The major changing point in my life was ending highschool. Also at the same time highschool ended, my family moved away from me once again. My mom and brothers moved off to Texas while I again stayed at my grandparents house in Ohio. Living with my grandparents seemed so unlike home. I was the only "child" left in their house, this made thing strangely awkward for me. I was never close to my grandparents like most people are. I can't confide in my grandmother or grandfather, they seem to judgemental for me to talk to them when it comes to personal matters. The summer went by quick and I started college at Kent State, not at the main campus but a satellite branch in Canton. I liked it well enough and did decently well. I met a few people and saw some people from the church that I knew... well one girl in specific. Cara and I were already friends but became increasingly close since we were now on the same campus everyday and saw each other all the time. We went off to the feast and thing fell into place. We started dating and things seemed great. School continued and the following fall Cara and I both transferred to the main campus of Kent State. Classes seemed huge and somewhat over whelming but I got through them decently well.
It was around this time, the winter of 04 that I wanted to attend ABC in 06, Cara wasn't pleased with the decision, what girlfriend would be happy that her boyfriend wanted to move 4 hours away. It seemed that about this time things got rocky for Cara and I. Things also got ruff at home.
My older sister who was currently living in California had gotten into some trouble. My mom and grandmother decided it was best if they went to help her out and get her into a better situation. I was home alone most nights, my grandpa at work, grandma in CA. It was this time that Cara decided to break up with me. I was heartbroken and had no one to confide in at all, and felt really alone at night with no one around.
It was also this time that one of my friends, Dave Kozak, decided it was time to end his life. Upon finding out I called Cara up and asked her if she would come over, she said she couldn't, that she was in Akron. I insisted she come over, and after all Akron is closer to Cuyahoga falls than Canton by a long shot, but she said no she wouldn't come over. I also herd a man with her and asked who this guy was, she was drunk and acted like I should know this mysterious Dan guy. She then decided that it was a good idea to tell me that she was cheating on me with this fellow. I broke down like I had never before. This was not news I needed after finding out one of my friends had died, now my ex had told me she had been cheating on me. I was devastated and all alone. Graham Edwards was the only friend I felt I could confide in. Driving around in a rage, I called him and he calmed me down. He's been a great friend to me, I wish other people could see how great a guy he is.
The next few moths became a drunken mess. Most nights I would hang out with friends from school and get drunk and party. Life had been so shitty before why not live it up and not worry about anything!
I had few moments of clarity. Teri Haney helped me a lot as well. Her and I became really great friends her last two months that she was at Kent. She then moved away too, off to Fish Lake, Florida for those who don't know. Then it was back to the drinking.
Summer was here and I had decided now would be a great time to turn in my App. for ABC. I got accepted shortly after and was greatly excited but, I didn't change anything. I still drank and partied like never before. Fall came and school was a bother. I didn't want to go to class and didn't want to study, and I ended up failing. But a change was ahead!
ABC came into my life and what a HUGE impact it had on me. I realized over the past 8 months what life is all about. I learned what a man is, what God expects of all of us. Sure there were some hard times, overcoming my worldly habits and they aren't all gone. While attending it was easy to do the right thing. Thats all gone now. I have so much free time on my hands its not even funny. I feel like I'm wasting away. I yearn for that social high that was here for the past 8 months. Instead of studying my bible or listening to sermons, I sleep and surf the net. I'm sick of being so lazy. I'm sick of not being the person I want to be. Tonight I laid in bed and thought about the past few years and realized I've changed and I need to act like it! No more being lazy, no more just sitting around acting like i have nothing to do. I have stuff to do. I have more to learn. I pray God will give me the strength to do what is right and continue to grow into a man He can be proud of. | | |
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